Two years ago today, I got off the phone with my mom, sat down at my desk and started this blog. She thought I needed a hobby and some form of “creative” outlet during PA school. And somehow we came to the idea that a blog would be a good route for this. I had absolutely no idea what I was doing. Seriously. I came up with the name Stethoscope and Sparkle on a whim (I’m not typically creative so I have no idea how this awesome name popped into my head) and just started running with it. I figured my mom would read my blog; that maybe a friend or two would entertain me and like some of my stuff.
I had absolutely no idea what this random, spur-of-the-moment decision would grow into.
Having a blog these past two years has been an adventure. There have definitely been ups and downs but I wouldn’t give up my experience for anything. My application to PA school was one of the most stressful time periods of my life. I was near tears a lot during those months – first from dealing with the stress of CASPA, then from waiting for interviews when everyone around me seemed to be getting so many, and finally when I was waiting to find out if I had gotten in anywhere. Back then, I didn’t feel like there were a lot of options for places to turn to. Sure I could read the PA forum or talk to my friends, but most of the times those options seemed to stress me out even more. So when my mom and I were talking about creative options for me, helping pre-PA students just seemed like the route to go. I wanted to be the kind of guiding, calming person that I wish was there for me when I was applying.
I didn’t realize that people would actually read these rambling narratives of posts. Or that I would be getting tons of DMs and emails from people actually wanting me to help them. And for a while, it was super scary. To be honest, it kind of still is. Who am I to try and tell you guys anything?
So I try to sit down and write to you guys how I wish someone would talk to me – honest and encouraging. And it seems to be working so far.
This blog has made me stronger and braver and more well rounded.
I’ve met some of the most amazing individuals from it (shout out @_DorothyFaye, @Palindrome_PA, and @StudyingInScrubs). I’ve had people tell me that they thought that the things I was saying were inspirational, and that I made their day brighter. It’s forced me to go WAY outside my comfort zone and do things I never would have normally – like share my insecurities and failures with more than just my mom. I’ve gotten better at articulating my thoughts, and I’ve learned a lot more about this profession than I ever would have just by going to PA school.
I’ve also been told how stupid I am, that I don’t know what I’m talking about, and that I’m wasting my time doing this. And there definitely has been a lot of self-doubt and comparisons on my end, especially when I felt like I actually was wasting my time by doing this. There have been days were I wanted to stop, and I honestly hesitated for quite a while before renewing my domain. For a long time, I didn’t ever talk about my blog in real life and just kind of pretended it didn’t exist.
But at the end of the day, the real reason I’m doing this – spending the time writing these posts, taking the pictures, figuring out what to talk about – is because of you guys. Sure, I needed a way to express myself and grow as a person, and that’s what this blog has done for me. But I wanted to be a source that someone could turn to when they had questions. I wanted to be able to talk about how excited I am to be a PA, because it seriously is an amazing profession. And as much as I never expected to have people reading these rambling narratives of posts, it makes me super excited. Because hopefully that means that your application period is just a little bit less stressful than mine was.
So I just wanted to take a moment and thank you guys for following along for the past two years with me! If you don’t follow me already on INSTAGRAM, be sure to head over there because I’m doing an awesome giveaway in celebration!
And seriously, reach out to me. The whole reason I’m doing this is because of you guys!! So send me an email and ask your question or just stop by to say hi.